Oh Right, Christmas Happened

Christmas was a thing, wasn't it?

I hope all of you had a wonderful Christmas! I hope you were all warm and safe and happy, and surrounded by the people that you love.


Personally, I had a kind of quiet Christmas at my family's home.  I got a couple of really nice gifts, a couple of very strange gifts and my aunt entirely forgot me and gave everyone else really nice gifts while giving me nothing. My mother and I fought because I wanted to use seasoning in the food during Christmas dinner and she wanted to serve a lot of bland and boiled things and she ended up winning.

My grandmother, who is ninety three and not particularly well (and a large part of the reason that I'm here for such a long period of time) spent a lot of time introducing herself to me. She insisted that I'm not Alex and wouldn't believe anyone who tried to tell her otherwise. At one point, she told me that I must be the same age as her granddaughter, but that she doesn't come visit her much and she hasn't seen her in a long time. She did recognize me once, on Christmas morning, and that was a relieving feeling. It was shortly followed by her asking where basically every deceased member of our family was. We simply responding by telling her that they aren't here, but the the reminder that they aren't was bitter (especially G, of course).

I got to talk to Paul on Christmas Eve, which was the best part of the holiday for me. My mom is very invasive to my privacy, which is part of what makes being at home very hard for me, but I was able to steal away into the room where I'm staying to skype with him. It was similar to the way that I used to sneak off into my bedroom in our old house in order to watch spanking videos as a teen, except now this whole world isn't just a fantasy one for me: it's where I live. It reminded me of how hard it would be for my teenage self to believe just how awesome my life is these days, and how lucky I am to get to do something I love so with such wonderful people. Despite my great dislike of this situation, it was also strangely hot to whisper "Shhhh! My mom will hear you!" when Paul said inappropriate things to me.

In other spanking related news, and in what seems to by my family's time honored tradition, I received something that would make a very good implement. This time, nestled among a few bath products, I received this gem:

It's actually the only wooden hairbrush I've ever found to be good for hair! We'll see about the other use soon enough, I'm sure.

It's always awkward when you get a gift like that from a family member. I later opened it up to look at it and had to sort of clumsily run it through my hair like The Little Mermaid encountering a fork at dinner: I *think* this is what people use this for, right? I had to resist the urge to smack it against my hand, which is the only thing that felt natural to do with it! 

I got sick shortly after Christmas and haven't done too much, hence the fact that it took me five days to finish this post! I don't mean to make it sound like I don't care about my family or enjoy spending time with them: it's just challenging right now. I apologize for being so glum, but things will perk back up soon. I'm hopeful that I can steal away from my family to visit a few friends in the coming days. And soon I'll be back to Los Angeles, where I'm planning to see a bunch of my wonderful friends there right away. I'll be shooting with Chelsea Pfieffer for Good Spanking upon my return, too! I haven't shot for Good Spanking since my first month of spanking modeling so I'm really looking forward to doing that! 

I hate to be a bother, but if you haven't voted for me as Spankee of the Year yet, please consider doing so now! It would certainly cheer me up if I won! 

A much more spanking heavy post coming soon! ❤︎

Winning!

Hey everyone!
Thank you so much for voting for my blog for the "Best Creative Spanking Blog" Category in The Spanking Awards! They announced last night that I won! It's my second awards in a row winning (there weren't any awards given last year) and it makes me feel pretty darn special. Despite all my difficulties keeping this blog up in the past year, it's refreshing to hear that you guys still enjoy it!

I'm not the kind of person who has won many medals in my life, so this one really means a lot to me, even if it's just a graphic!

I found out about the fact that I had won when Erica tweeted at me: I was in the grocery store with my mom running around getting stuff for Christmas dinner at the last minute. It turns out that I took first, Pandora got second and Erica got third. Pandora and Erica are two of my all time favorite people, so I'm happy to share the rankings with them. I certainly don't think I'm a better blogger than either one, though, and I wouldn't even HAVE a blog if it wasn't for those two! They were two of my biggest influences in starting this little corner of the internet.

I want to extend my gratitude to everyone who reads my blog, whether you voted or not! I wouldn't have a blog if I didn't have people to read it. It means so much to me that you guys think what I have to say is worth your time!

I'd also like to thank Paul for helping me in my struggle to keep posting regularly, for giving me lots of sexy things to write about, and above all else, for being the most loving and encouraging partner I could ask for. I'm the luckiest girl in the world to have him.

On the same note, I'd like to thank Rafa and Z, my wonderful vanilla boyfriend and girlfriend. It means so much to me that two non-kinky people have so wholeheartedly embraced my lifestyle. They support me in everything that I do and never make me feel like my life is any weirder or than their own. I'm so lucky to have such an awesome trifecta of wonderful people supporting me, cheering me on in the good times and supporting me when things are harder.

I'd like to thank John over at Spanking Blogg for resurrecting the Spanking Awards this year! I know it's a lot of work to do, but it's very appreciated!

Finally, I'd like to thank my amazing assortment of friends, play partners and lovers for filling my life with happiness and adventures. This makes for a very contented Alex as well as a lot of great stuff to share with everyone here!

I hope to make 2015 another wonderful year of blogging, and to have lots of exciting spanking tales to share with all of you.
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(Don't forget that the Spankee of the Year voting is still going on!) 

Exciting Accomplishments!

Hey guys,
I'm in New Jersey right now, visiting my family of origin. Unlike last year's winter wonderland, things have just been cold and drizzly. Being here is a mix of being very relaxed and lazy and also being a bit stressed and sad. It's hard not to focus on the things that I've lost here, but when I enjoy the positive, I can have a good time. I've been having pretty much the worst possible sleep cycle ever since I've been here, though. My body just wants to be nocturnal, and I keep grumpily struggling against this. Since I'm home, I obviously don't have any exciting spanking stories to share with you, although I've certainly had it on my mind whenever I'm alone!

There have been a couple of things brightening my days, though. One of these is the fact that my book has been really well received so far. I'm so excited about this! The charts vary, but at one point, it was the second highest selling BDSM erotica book on Amazon, and it's been highly ranked in the Erotic Romance category, too. Plus, with only one book out, I've been close to the top fifty erotic authors list on Amazon. These numbers fluctuate, so if you go to look, it might not be the same, but it's been making me really excited to see. Not to mention the fact that I've only gotten five star reviews so far!

I'm really overjoyed that people are buying and reading my book, and it's been especially exciting to me to have my friends read it and enjoy it. If you haven't done so yet, I hope you will consider doing it! It's not expensive at all, and it's super hot, in my own personal opinion! I've had a lot of people asking me if it's going to be available as a paperback, and I think the answer is that it probably won't be. You don't need to own a kindle to download the book, though. You just need to download the free kindle software for your computer or phone. It's super easy, and you can immediately start enjoying my naughty novel! Click here to buy it for less than five dollars and to make me smile!

Another piece of big exciting news is the fact that I've been nominated for Spankee of the Year! When I first started doing videos, I kind of idly daydreamed about winning this award, and it's super exciting to have been nominated. It's a contest, so I would really appreciate anyone who is willing to go and vote for me!

The whole thing is made a little bit problematic by the fact that a lot of the other nominees are some of my best friends! It feels weird to be competing against people who I know and love. A lot of us have the same friends, and it puts them in an awkward situation of having to decide who to vote for. So, I'm not going to let myself get TOO competitive, although I must admit that winning would make me a happy girl indeed. I'm just pleased to have made it this far!

I guess a big part of the point of this post is that a lot of things that have been happening in my life these days are beyond my wildest dreams. I never thought I'd be able to "make it" as a spanking model, let alone be nominated for this prize! I doubted myself all the way through my writing process for The Doctor's Little Girl, worrying that no one would read it and that those that did wouldn't like it. So, I'm really pleased with myself, in a way that I don't feel guilty admitting. I've always struggled with self esteem issues, and both these things have been extremely validating.

I have been working on a couple of other posts, but the holidays make me way too distracted. I'll get there, I promise!

I started to write about some of the more dreary things that are going on in my family life and the sadnesses that Christmas time brings up for me, but I decided against it. I've got to keep myself positive. So, I'm going to try to get a little sleep and then when I get up I'm going to bake cookies and wrap presents: I'll force myself to get the rest of the way "into the spirit."

I hope you're all having a good holiday! ❤︎

My First Book: The Doctor's Little Girl

Over the past several months, I wrote my first book. It's spanking erotica, with a mix of romance, ageplay (DD/lg) and medical play themes. It's called "The Doctor's Little Girl" and it was released today by Stormy Night Publications. 

Writing my first spanking book was a serious undertaking. I'm fortunate that my experience in college taught me how to sit still and work on something for hours on end with my feet propped up and an ever growing pile of empty energy drinks and candy wrappers on the ground next to me. I did most of the writing before Paul left to go back to England, and I was lucky to have someone so supportive there "encouraging" me to keep going, to focus and not to get frustrated and give up on myself.

Although I  have a lot of writing experience, this was my first manuscript of any real length. It was definitely challenging. Mostly, I was daunted by the task. Throughout my whole life I'd imagined that I would write books, and I had talked about doing this one for a long time before I actually started. I'm so grateful for the support that my publishers, friends and scene-family gave to me throughout the writing process.

Check out the amazing cover that Korey Mae Johnson (co-owner of Stormy Night and a very good friend of mine) created for my book:

Here's the summary:

"After losing yet another job, twenty-year-old Molly Parker wonders whether failure and sadness are her lot in life. Her last hope lies in Dr. Andrew Harrington, the handsome physician who witnessed a courageous act of kindness on her part and then offered her a job. But Molly can’t help worrying that she’ll lose this job too, just like all the others… 
From the moment he set eyes on her, Andrew knew there was something special about Molly—special enough for him to bring her halfway across the country and give her a job at his practice and a room in his home—but it soon becomes clear that she will be a handful. When it seems that her poor attitude at work will leave him no choice but to fire her, he makes a bold decision and gives Molly exactly what she needs: a long, hard, bare-bottom spanking.  

Nobody has ever cared enough about Molly to correct her before, let alone take her in hand so completely, and soon enough she is cuddling in Andrew’s lap and calling him daddy. It will take more than one trip over Andrew’s knee to cure her bad habits, though, and discipline at a doctor’s office can leave a naughty little girl blushing bright red before her real punishment even begins. But can Andrew really give Molly what she has always longed for, or will he eventually give up on her like everyone else?  

Publisher’s Note: The Doctor’s Little Girl is an erotic romance novel that contains spankings, sexual scenes, age play, medical play, anal play, and more. If such material offends you, please don’t buy this book." 

Want a little more than that? Here's an excerpt from the book:

“Show me where you keep your pajamas,” he instructed.

Molly silently pointed to one of the drawers in the bureau near the window. Andrew got up and opened the drawer. Things were stuffed into it instead of being folded, but Andrew knew that now was not the right time to call her out on that. Instead he sifted through the drawer until he found a pair of cute, girlish pajamas: pink polka-dotted shorts with lace trim and a white tank top. He set them on the bed and gestured for Molly to stand up. She did what he wanted her to, and Andrew stood her in front of him, taking a moment to look at her. He looked at her big eyes and her delicate, innocent features, then let his gaze move down to her body. She was absolutely adorable. There was just no denying this. Slowly and calmly, he began to unbutton the buttons on her blouse.

“What are you doing?” she asked. She didn’t sound worried, but simply curious, maybe intrigued by the proceedings.

“I’m getting my little girl ready for bed,” he told her. He finished undoing her buttons and then pulled her blouse off her shoulders, sliding it off her arms and then setting it aside. It revealed an off-white bra. It was simple and unpadded, more for modesty than anything else. Her perky breasts held themselves up, capturing Andrew’s attention through the soft cotton fabric. He reached behind Molly’s back and, with a practiced maneuver, unhooked her bra with one hand. Molly began to blush furiously. It was adorable to watch the redness bloom on her face, originating around her cheeks and spreading across her nose and ears. He smiled boldly, and gently brushed the tip of her nose with one finger. 

He pulled the bra all the way off and set it with her shirt, then reached back and unzipped her skirt. The pencil skirts that Rebecca had picked out for Molly were professional, but because of the roundness of Molly’s backside, they clung to her, captivating Andrew’s eyes as she wandered around the office or house. Now that he had seen her bottom bare and red, the thought was never far from his mind. It took a little effort to wiggle the skirt over her butt, and Molly assisted him a little, swaying from side to side to encourage the fabric downwards. 

Soon, Molly was standing before him only in her panties. Andrew gently rubbed her back for a second, feeling her smooth, milky skin. He looked at her panties. They were pale purple with white polka dots, and Molly looked sweet and innocent wearing them, but it was time for them to come off. He pulled them down and she instinctively stepped out of them. Her coyness and obedience, combined with her lithe, nude form, made his cock grow hard. 

“Good girl,” he praised and Molly smiled slightly through her embarrassment. Andrew took a step back to enjoy the view, noticing that although it was warm in the room, Molly’s peachy nipples were rock hard. He was surprised to see that she didn’t try to cover herself with her hands. Instead, she kept them obediently at her sides, with only the flush on her face showing how much it embarrassed her to be stripped nude like this. “How does it feel to be naked in front of me?” Andrew asked. 

Molly bit her lip, as if she was thinking of the right answer. “Vulnerable,” she finally said. 

“Vulnerable,” Andrew repeated. “I like that answer. Are you embarrassed that I can see you?” he inquired. 

Molly nodded. 

“You’re mine to look at, little girl,” he told her. “I told you you were my little girl, and I meant it.” 

The book is chock full of the usual spankings that, if you read this blog, you'll come to expect from me. It also includes other fantasies of mine that I haven't always shared so openly, like some of the ageplay aspects and the medical play. While some parts of the book are inspired by my real life experiences, a lot of it comes from my imagination: specifically, from what my imagination comes up with when I have one hand down my pants.

I really, really hope that some of you guys will grab a copy. It's an e-book, so if you're confused by this feel free to let me know and I'll help you figure it out. It's also less than $5, so I personally think that's a great deal. If you're able to help me spread the word that I've written a book, I would also love that. The support you guys give me means so much to me.

By the way, you can now like me and my blog on Facebook if you are so incline. I'll be posting updates and other interesting stuff there.

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